pyro_technic's Journal

Everyone else is talking about their year, but after the way things have been lately, I'd rather talk about the past. It's a depressing subject, but everyone's been depressed at some point this summer.

( Those were the days... )

Rianna came when she was 13 and I was 15, so after 5 years of being alone, it was nice to have company. Granted, we didn't do much talking because we're both rather reclusive, but still. I finally had someone to smoke with,make sarcastic jokes to and well...

I'm not Junior or Jorge-I don't kiss and tell, nor do I tape anything. Guys...why the HELL do you tape it? It's bad enough to tape it, but to put it up on the INTERNET?!

:O

One day when we were smoking this year(right around the beginning), she tells me we have a new smoking buddy. I generally don't care about new people. Every now and then some of the girls talk to me(among other things. ;)) but they usually leave in the end. She goes on and on about how this girl is a "dork", but "funny as hell". Ok, doesn't sound so bad, but still nothing to think twice about. Then came the news:She's a girl version of me.

I didn't believe it, not for a second. Even the people who were nice to me fucked me over in the end. The ones who didn't pretended not to know me in public. They've all graduated by this point,anyway...so really, who gives a shit? If this girl was anything like I was, she must be REALLY quiet and moody. Supposedly, she even had powers like mine, which REALLY made me pay attention. I was dying to meet her, but I never seemed to be around Rianna when she was-I was starting to think Rianna made her up, just to play a joke on me.

Then I met her and my life changed completely, because I knew I'd found my soulmate...

:D

She was like I was, but only on a superficial level. I could never, ever be as smart, brave, crazy or hilarious as she is. She'd been bullied and spit upon just like I was, but she still had the capacity for joy and she put others first. She never bitched or whined about how things were for her. She always wanted to know about me and only talked about her problems if I really asked. She was so sweet, nice and funny and so open about the city she loved so much, her friends and her impression of the school so far-All despite being mistreated so badly. Heh, I'm still cracking up from what she said that night. We spent most of the night talking, laughing and smoking(What we smoked remains between us ;)), talked about life, listened to music on her iPod and I got a chance to see her powers. Hell, she even busted out the John Lennon for me. I have to say...I've never heard "Imagine" sung so sweetly in my life. :D

Apparently, I was in dire need of "re-education". Man, what a re-education-She talked to me about her beloved New York, how much she missed Chinese Food(Wide noodles with brown sauce and tofu really IS the best :)), "Bubble Tea", how desperate she was for a damn Frappuchino(They are REALLY good, especially the ones with fresh fruit) and even weirder stuff I've never heard about, like "Trannies". Apparently, "Trannies" occasionally live in the "West Side" of the "Village", but mainly in the "Meat-Packing District". They even have a "Drag Race" she and her friends attend every Halloween. It's not drag racing with cars, but "Drag Queens". It raises money for victims of hate crimes and apparently, "Ru Paul" and his/her friends look "Ab Fab" in spike heels, wigs and makeup. She also mumbled something about "Donald Trump" and how he loves to tell people "You're fired!" when he decides who is apprentice is(On TELEVISION) and somebody named "Meg Ryan" and how she's the best. Also? New York was supposedly so fast-paced, they coined the term In a "New York Minute". She tried to hide her accent, but when she said things like "OH NO YOU DIDN'T!", it showed up. Especially when she was being silly and said things like, "Fo shizzle ma nizzle!" and "WHAZZUP! Holla at me, dawg!"

(I still really, REALLY don't get why Jorge, Lupe and she talk like that. I know she's doing it to be stupid and make everyone laugh, but Jorge and Lupe aren't joking. o_O)

Apparently, she had water like I have fire. We talked and she told me about the water and what it was thinking and how it was depressed and wished people would stop dumping "the bodies" in there. She said it was singing the "saddest" song she'd ever heard in her life and that it had a "low hum" and the vibrations were strong as hell. Sort of how the flames hypnotize me when they're dancing in a circle, just for me. :)
The frogs really, REALLY seemed to like her, too-When she was singing, they all swarmed around her-It was kinda scary at first, but amusing towards the end. Still...one thing surprised me-Hell, it surprised us both. It was what the frogs told her-It was rather unnerving...

They told her they'd never take away "what was yours in the first place" and how they so happy, "now that you're home...where you belong". As if that wasn't creepy enough, they begged her never to leave them ever again.

...............................

o_O

Umm...why would the FROGS tell her that? I mean, it's one thing for the water to tell her things,(That's a given-We're ELEMENTALS), but the FROGS?!

Either way, I invited her to have lunch with me and I think we all know how the story ended. :D

An entire school year has passed, but so much has changed. I'm working(God, I never thought I'd hear myself say that) not one, but two jobs, I have my own band, my own ROOM, a pet python she bought me , just so she could call it "Monty Python"(HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA....Only my girl would name her pets after beer commercials, obscure lyrics from a song by a one-hit wonder and an old British Sketch Comedy show from the 70's and The Dark Lord's familar in Harry Potter) a space to practice in(Lilith got me studio on SoHo to paint, practice and do whatever in), I actually have friends I can talk to and hang out with, she gave me and Rianna all her weed and smokes the minute Bart convinced her to go straight-edge(WHAT THE FUCK?!), I've re-connected with a family member(that's classified), discovered one or two new ones, I have a little brother who worships the ground I walk on(I LOVE that little boy with all my soul), her father loves me to death and well...I'm happy. I have friends, I have the love of an amazing woman and more than that? I have the one thing I always wanted...a family.

That...along with a million other reasons is why I love her so much, my head hurts. :D

<33333333333333

*sigh*

To make matters worse? I'm so whipped, she has me taking MAGIC CLASSES, meditating, doing yoga, reading Harry Potter and actually using my damn powers for more than making campfires and lighting cigarettes.

Yes, yes, you heard me-Everyone knows I'm a slacker. Then again...it's her-How can I say no to such a pretty face, after all she's done for me? She gave me my LIFE back, for god's sake! I actually got to celebrate Christmas(In Rockefeller Center, of all places) and New Year's Eve(They really ARE having a rockin' New Year's Eve in TIMES SQUARE!! :D) for the first time in eons. Yes, yes I'm going to SCHOOL voluntarily(During summer, of all times-EWWWWW!!!), but if it makes her happy to have me use my powers and study, then I can't refuse her.

I'm actually a tad bit in awe of how seriously she' takes her studies. Every week, we go to antique stores, used bookstores, magic stores(Like Enchantments in Manhattan) and sometimes commercial places like Barnes and Noble to look for books, kits and supplies. She has stuff we do for assignments, she also has a teacher she's been working with since she was 11. That and of course, we have to meditate twice daily and do our damn yoga.

I'm sorry sweetie, but yoga scares me, it really does. Why do you and Casey like it so much? More importantly, why the FUCK do they need us to twist our bodies around in such bizarre positions? I'm amazed you people haven't broken your damn back trying to bend around like that. I mean, is it REALLY necessary to turn yourself into a pretzel, then walk on your fingers like a damn crab?

x_X

Also, what the FUCK is Krav Maga and why are you, Bart, Rianna, Casey, Lupe and Jorge taking it? More than that, why does Bart look giddy as hell anytime the subject comes up? I'm sorry, but if it makes him excited, I'm gonna assume it involves the following:

a.)Pulling an Ozzy Osbourne and ripping a bat's wings apart and spitting out the head

b.)Killing a prostitute and throwing her in a dumpster(HAHAHAHAHA, Jack the Ripper-God, Jorge...that's a good one)

c.)Rape

d.)Locking and Loading, all whilst wearing ridiculous sunglasses and enforcing the law(HAHAHAHAHA, "Robo-Cop"-Only thing better is "The Terminator")

e.)Zombies, dead people and other creepy bullshit

>_<

I really, REALLY wish you would stop encouraging him...I do. If you two are friends, I won't nag you, I won't. But COME ON! No one likes him aside from Lupe and maybe Asher, but Asher is nice to everyone, so I doubt that counts. Is it REALLY necessary to watch "28 Days Later"(As well as the sequel), "Dawn of the dead", "Land of the Dead", "Kill Bill"(Vol. 1 and 2) and 300:The Unrated version? I mean, I suppose it's thoughtful of you to take his interests, lack of personality, emotion, common sense and intelligence into consideration, but well...it's kinda creepy to watch THAT MUCH blood and gore.

Especially Kill Bill-Work of art my ass-Why oh WHYYYY is watching Uma Thurman slice off the top of Lucy Liu's head, so we can see her brains splattered all over the place? COME ON!! Even you couldn't look-I know because I had to hold your hair back when you started puking your guts out. You threw up almost as bad as you did during 300.

Also...was it neccesary for Sofie Fatale to be bleeding all over the place? In fact, I think it's sick as hell that they kept that poor woman alive in the first place-They cut off her damn arm, for god's sake!

EWWWWW!!!

:x

Also, why are you and Jorge so into Resident Evil and House of the Dead? I mean yes, technically you're the good guys, but it's GROSS-Whenever the characters die, they eat your limbs off, for fuck's sake! In fact...the fact that you're playing every shooting game known to man(Including those stupid shooting things at Coney Island, the western game at Dave and Buster's and an actual shooting range) and games involving zombies getting their skin peeled out just to make your "best friend" feel at home is GROSS.

I could really, REALLY use some entertainment right now. Something that does NOT involve death, blood, gore, the words "Saw", "Hostel", "The Hills have Eyes", shooting ANYTHING or sports.

It's not personal, but you and Jorge are so FUCKING obsessed with sports. All Casey said was that she liked the Red Sox because her dad was from Boston and you both screamed bloody murder. Dude...it's just baseball-Who gives a shit? Also, why does it make a difference whether or not one can properly toss a "spiral"? Why does it have to "snap" in order to make it across the 50 yard line? why is Pepsi for a "Mets" fan and why does that make it bad? Oh and why does Jorge keep going on and on about how you can "Bend it like Beckham"?

o_O

I have to admit though, it was pretty FUCKING hot watching you 360 on that half-pipe during the contest. You didn't even care whether or not you got hurt, you just kicked ass and skated your heart out. >:D

I have to say I'm a tad bit concerned at this point. It's one thing to skateboard, roller-blade, but is it REALLY necessary to bmx, rail-slide AND play traffic Frogger(AT THE SAME DAMN TIME!!), just because Jorge bet 50 bucks you were "too chicken" to make it from one side of the street to another?

x_X

It's sexy as hell, but it's also dangerous as hell. I cannot believe I'm saying this...but I agree with Bart: YOU COULD HAVE BEEN KILLED DAMNIT!!

The fact that Jorge put it up on YouTube, along with the skating thing really, REALLY bothers me. Also...is it true you beat his girlfriend shitless, ripped her earrings off and got hauled off by the COPS?!

O_O

Umm...I'd really, REALLY rather you not get into catfights. I know Jorge claims it's "better than porn"(Which is probably it's now on YouTube x_X), but you could have done time. You're just lucky Jorge talked his girlfriend into not pressing charges-The owners could have had you arrested for disturbing the peace, damaging private propertly and disordely conduct.

>_<

*ends rant*

Oh well...none of that matters, because I love you so much, I got you a surprise before your birthday party:

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It's hard to read from the picture, but the tattoo says "Hers". :D

I have a few others, as well as some piercings-I got my tongue pierced, as well as my nipples. You can't see it in the picture, but that's because it was taken before I got them pierced. >:D

I know nipples seem scary to some, but it actually wasn't that bad. Then again, this is coming from someone who makes their own tattoos by burning them into my skin. It's not like I can get my ears, nose or eyebrows pierced-That would be an extremely obvious excuse to get my ass kicked YET AGAIN.
Some of the people there were insane, though-Some weird girl asked if she could have her "downstairs" pierced.

x_X

Yeah...I don't care who you are, that's just FUCKED UP-I mean, shit...why not just move to Africa and be a victim of Female Genital Mutilation? It's pretty much the same thing, only this girl was stupid enough to pay money for it.

(My girlfriend and her father are

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Everyone else is talking about their year, but after the way things have been lately, I'd rather talk about the past. It's a depressing subject, but everyone's been depressed at some point this summer.

<lj-cut text="Those were the days...">Today is a big deal for me because, well...today should have been the day I got married. That sounds bizarre as hell, but truth be told, even among normals, families have arranged marriages for political, financial and business reasons. Even now, kids get engaged and marry when they grow up. For us though...it wasn't really arranged-Both of us wanted to and had for the past two years. Granted, we were children, so we were innocent, but we always wanted to stick together, no matter what. In my case, I got engaged when I was 8 and she was 4. Were things different, we would have gotten married today. 16 was the standard ago to get married in Aghartha, so it wouldn't have been weird in any way, shape or form.

Everyone knows I'm an orphan, so I don't bother waxing poetic about it. I've long since gotten used to the fact that my parents aren't here and that the family that's alive doesn't matter anymore. They all probably assumed I was dead, because they "never found" the bodies.

(Right, of course not-Five bodies are just COMPLETELY unaccounted for. What-the-FUCK-ever.)

I had friends growing up in Aghartha-I lived in a place called Telos. They had schools like Starchild back then, but life was completely different. There weren't just schools for Purebloods, there were schools divided according to gender, race, species,etc...

It sucks, but it was war-All of us expected as much. As crappy as segregation is, it was necessary for our safety. My best friend hated it, but she was just a little kid-Hell, she was 6 years old the last time I saw her, so really, she only went to preschool and kindergarten there. I've never spoken of her, but I miss her every day, even more so than my parents. I don't have much from my past, but I have this:

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She looks surprised, but she was actually amused as hell. The picture was taken with a regular camera and she made no secret of how lame she thought it was-They didn't need cameras in Telos or Shamballa. They had moving pictures similar to the one of Harry's parents in Harry Potter. So for her, a "camera" was like someone showing her what a chariot looked like. :P

Her name was Kiraga and she was the one person I was closest to until I was 10. Granted, I have Risa, Casey and Rianna now, but still-She was my past and I'd always assumed she'd be my future and present. She wasn't like anyone I'd ever met in my life-I'd known her since she was born, but even as kids, we knew we had a bond. Anytime I was in a bad mood and hid by myself, she'd come find me-She'd hit me with her tiny little fists and say she wanted to climb trees or play on the swing set. She knew exactly who she was and while she wasn't a bitch about it, she never made a secret of just how smart and grown-up she thought she was.

I miss everything, damnit-The way she'd always try and embarass me by sneaking up on me when she should I wasn't looking and yelling, "BOO!", the smirk on her face when she thought of something silly to do, like hang upside down from trees, steal my things and hide them someplace different just to annoy me, the way her hair always blew in the wind, the way her eyes sparkled the first time she got a tiara like her mother. Thinking of her made me come up with this...

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"With You In Your Dreams"

If I'm gone when you wake up
Please don't cry
And if I'm gone when you wake up
It's not goodbye
Don't look back at this time as a time
Of heartbreak and distress
Remember me, remember me
'Cause I'll be with you in your dreams
Oh I'll be with you, oh oh

But If I'm gone when you wake up
Please don't cry
And if I'm gone when you wake up
Don't ask why
Don't look back at this time
As a time of heartbreak and distress
Remember me, remember me
'Cause I'll be with you in your dreams

Oh oh

Don't cry, I'm with you
Don't cry, I'm by your side
Don't cry, I'm with you
Don't cry, I'm by your side

And though my flesh is gone, whoa
I'll still be with you at all times
And although my body's gone, oh
I'll be there to comfort you at all times

Oh oh

But If I'm gone when you wake up
Please don't cry
And if I'm gone when you wake up
Don't ask why
Don't look back at this time
As a time of heartbreak and distress
Remember me, remember me
'Cause I'll be with you
I'll be with you in your dreams

Oh, I'll be with you
Oh
I'll be with you in your dreams
I'll be with you
I'll be with you

I don't want you to cry and weep, oh
I want you to go on living your life
I'm not sleeping an endless sleep, oh
'Cause in your heart
You have all of our good times
Oh, all of our good times
Oh oh you have

And if I'm gone when you wake up
Don't ask why
Don't look back at this time
As a time of heartbreak and distress
Remember me, remember me
'Cause I'll be with you in your dreams

Oh
I'll be with you in your dreams
I'll be with you
Oh
I'll be with you
I'll be with you in your dreams
I'll be with you in your dreams...
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*sigh*

I never got to say goodbye...she was just a kid....</lj-cut>

Rianna came when she was 13 and I was 15, so after 5 years of being alone, it was nice to have company. Granted, we didn't do much talking because we're both rather reclusive, but still. I finally had someone to smoke with,make sarcastic jokes to and well...

I'm not Junior or Jorge-I don't kiss and tell, nor do I tape anything. Guys...why the HELL do you tape it? It's bad enough to tape it, but to put it up on the INTERNET?!

:O

One day when we were smoking this year(right around the beginning), she tells me we have a new smoking buddy. I generally don't care about new people. Every now and then some of the girls talk to me(among other things. ;)) but they usually leave in the end. She goes on and on about how this girl is a "dork", but "funny as hell". Ok, doesn't sound so bad, but still nothing to think twice about. Then came the news:She's a girl version of me.

I didn't believe it, not for a second. Even the people who were nice to me fucked me over in the end. The ones who didn't pretended not to know me in public. They've all graduated by this point,anyway...so really, who gives a shit? If this girl was anything like I was, she must be REALLY quiet and moody. Supposedly, she even had powers like mine, which REALLY made me pay attention. I was dying to meet her, but I never seemed to be around Rianna when she was-I was starting to think Rianna made her up, just to play a joke on me.

Then I met her and my life changed completely, because I knew I'd found my soulmate...

:D

She was like I was, but only on a superficial level. I could never, ever be as smart, brave, crazy or hilarious as she is. She'd been bullied and spit upon just like I was, but she still had the capacity for joy and she put others first. She never bitched or whined about how things were for her. She always wanted to know about me and only talked about her problems if I really asked. She was so sweet, nice and funny and so open about the city she loved so much, her friends and her impression of the school so far-All despite being mistreated so badly. Heh, I'm still cracking up from what she said that night. We spent most of the night talking, laughing and smoking(What we smoked remains between us ;)), talked about life, listened to music on her iPod and I got a chance to see her powers. Hell, she even busted out the John Lennon for me. I have to say...I've never heard "Imagine" sung so sweetly in my life. :D

Apparently, I was in dire need of "re-education". Man, what a re-education-She talked to me about her beloved New York, how much she missed Chinese Food(Wide noodles with brown sauce and tofu really IS the best :)), "Bubble Tea", how desperate she was for a damn Frappuchino(They are REALLY good, especially the ones with fresh fruit) and even weirder stuff I've never heard about, like "Trannies". Apparently, "Trannies" occasionally live in the "West Side" of the "Village", but mainly in the "Meat-Packing District". They even have a "Drag Race" she and her friends attend every Halloween. It's not drag racing with cars, but "Drag Queens". It raises money for victims of hate crimes and apparently, "Ru Paul" and his/her friends look "Ab Fab" in spike heels, wigs and makeup. She also mumbled something about "Donald Trump" and how he loves to tell people "You're fired!" when he decides who is apprentice is(On TELEVISION) and somebody named "Meg Ryan" and how she's the best. Also? New York was supposedly so fast-paced, they coined the term In a "New York Minute". She tried to hide her accent, but when she said things like "OH NO YOU DIDN'T!", it showed up. Especially when she was being silly and said things like, "Fo shizzle ma nizzle!" and "WHAZZUP! Holla at me, dawg!"

(I still really, REALLY don't get why Jorge, Lupe and she talk like that. I know she's doing it to be stupid and make everyone laugh, but Jorge and Lupe aren't joking. o_O)

Apparently, she had water like I have fire. We talked and she told me about the water and what it was thinking and how it was depressed and wished people would stop dumping "the bodies" in there. She said it was singing the "saddest" song she'd ever heard in her life and that it had a "low hum" and the vibrations were strong as hell. Sort of how the flames hypnotize me when they're dancing in a circle, just for me. :)
The frogs really, REALLY seemed to like her, too-When she was singing, they all swarmed around her-It was kinda scary at first, but amusing towards the end. Still...one thing surprised me-Hell, it surprised us both. It was what the frogs told her-It was rather unnerving...

They told her they'd never take away "what was yours in the first place" and how they so happy, "now that you're home...where you belong". As if that wasn't creepy enough, they begged her never to leave them ever again.

...............................

o_O

Umm...why would the FROGS tell her that? I mean, it's one thing for the water to tell her things,(That's a given-We're ELEMENTALS), but the FROGS?!

Either way, I invited her to have lunch with me and I think we all know how the story ended. :D

An entire school year has passed, but so much has changed. I'm working(God, I never thought I'd hear myself say that) not one, but two jobs, I have my own band, my own ROOM, a pet python she bought me , just so she could call it "Monty Python"(HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA....Only my girl would name her pets after beer commercials, obscure lyrics from a song by a one-hit wonder and an old British Sketch Comedy show from the 70's and The Dark Lord's familar in Harry Potter) a space to practice in(Lilith got me studio on SoHo to paint, practice and do whatever in), I actually have friends I can talk to and hang out with, she gave me and Rianna all her weed and smokes the minute Bart convinced her to go straight-edge(WHAT THE FUCK?!), I've re-connected with a family member(that's classified), discovered one or two new ones, I have a little brother who worships the ground I walk on(I LOVE that little boy with all my soul), her father loves me to death and well...I'm happy. I have friends, I have the love of an amazing woman and more than that? I have the one thing I always wanted...a family.

That...along with a million other reasons is why I love her so much, my head hurts. :D

<33333333333333

*sigh*

To make matters worse? I'm so whipped, she has me taking MAGIC CLASSES, meditating, doing yoga, reading Harry Potter and actually using my damn powers for more than making campfires and lighting cigarettes.

Yes, yes, you heard me-Everyone knows I'm a slacker. Then again...it's her-How can I say no to such a pretty face, after all she's done for me? She gave me my LIFE back, for god's sake! I actually got to celebrate Christmas(In Rockefeller Center, of all places) and New Year's Eve(They really ARE having a rockin' New Year's Eve in TIMES SQUARE!! :D) for the first time in eons. Yes, yes I'm going to SCHOOL voluntarily(During summer, of all times-EWWWWW!!!), but if it makes her happy to have me use my powers and study, then I can't refuse her.

I'm actually a tad bit in awe of how seriously she' takes her studies. Every week, we go to antique stores, used bookstores, magic stores(Like Enchantments in Manhattan) and sometimes commercial places like Barnes and Noble to look for books, kits and supplies. She has stuff we do for assignments, she also has a teacher she's been working with since she was 11. That and of course, we have to meditate twice daily and do our damn yoga.

I'm sorry sweetie, but yoga scares me, it really does. Why do you and Casey like it so much? More importantly, why the FUCK do they need us to twist our bodies around in such bizarre positions? I'm amazed you people haven't broken your damn back trying to bend around like that. I mean, is it REALLY necessary to turn yourself into a pretzel, then walk on your fingers like a damn crab?

x_X

Also, what the FUCK is Krav Maga and why are you, Bart, Rianna, Casey, Lupe and Jorge taking it? More than that, why does Bart look giddy as hell anytime the subject comes up? I'm sorry, but if it makes him excited, I'm gonna assume it involves the following:

a.)Pulling an Ozzy Osbourne and ripping a bat's wings apart and spitting out the head

b.)Killing a prostitute and throwing her in a dumpster(HAHAHAHAHA, Jack the Ripper-God, Jorge...that's a good one)

c.)Rape

d.)Locking and Loading, all whilst wearing ridiculous sunglasses and enforcing the law(HAHAHAHAHA, "Robo-Cop"-Only thing better is "The Terminator")

e.)Zombies, dead people and other creepy bullshit

>_<

I really, REALLY wish you would stop encouraging him...I do. If you two are friends, I won't nag you, I won't. But COME ON! No one likes him aside from Lupe and maybe Asher, but Asher is nice to everyone, so I doubt that counts. Is it REALLY necessary to watch "28 Days Later"(As well as the sequel), "Dawn of the dead", "Land of the Dead", "Kill Bill"(Vol. 1 and 2) and 300:The Unrated version? I mean, I suppose it's thoughtful of you to take his interests, lack of personality, emotion, common sense and intelligence into consideration, but well...it's kinda creepy to watch THAT MUCH blood and gore.

Especially Kill Bill-Work of art my ass-Why oh WHYYYY is watching Uma Thurman slice off the top of Lucy Liu's head, so we can see her brains splattered all over the place? COME ON!! Even you couldn't look-I know because I had to hold your hair back when you started puking your guts out. You threw up almost as bad as you did during 300.

Also...was it neccesary for Sofie Fatale to be bleeding all over the place? In fact, I think it's sick as hell that they kept that poor woman alive in the first place-They cut off her damn arm, for god's sake!

EWWWWW!!!

:x

Also, why are you and Jorge so into Resident Evil and House of the Dead? I mean yes, technically you're the good guys, but it's GROSS-Whenever the characters die, they eat your limbs off, for fuck's sake! In fact...the fact that you're playing every shooting game known to man(Including those stupid shooting things at Coney Island, the western game at Dave and Buster's and an actual shooting range) and games involving zombies getting their skin peeled out just to make your "best friend" feel at home is GROSS.

I could really, REALLY use some entertainment right now. Something that does NOT involve death, blood, gore, the words "Saw", "Hostel", "The Hills have Eyes", shooting ANYTHING or sports.

It's not personal, but you and Jorge are so FUCKING obsessed with sports. All Casey said was that she liked the Red Sox because her dad was from Boston and you both screamed bloody murder. Dude...it's just baseball-Who gives a shit? Also, why does it make a difference whether or not one can properly toss a "spiral"? Why does it have to "snap" in order to make it across the 50 yard line? why is Pepsi for a "Mets" fan and why does that make it bad? Oh and why does Jorge keep going on and on about how you can "Bend it like Beckham"?

o_O

I have to admit though, it was pretty FUCKING hot watching you 360 on that half-pipe during the contest. You didn't even care whether or not you got hurt, you just kicked ass and skated your heart out. >:D

I have to say I'm a tad bit concerned at this point. It's one thing to skateboard, roller-blade, but is it REALLY necessary to bmx, rail-slide AND play traffic Frogger(AT THE SAME DAMN TIME!!), just because Jorge bet 50 bucks you were "too chicken" to make it from one side of the street to another?

x_X

It's sexy as hell, but it's also dangerous as hell. I cannot believe I'm saying this...but I agree with Bart: YOU COULD HAVE BEEN KILLED DAMNIT!!

The fact that Jorge put it up on YouTube, along with the skating thing really, REALLY bothers me. Also...is it true you beat his girlfriend shitless, ripped her earrings off and got hauled off by the COPS?!

O_O

Umm...I'd really, REALLY rather you not get into catfights. I know Jorge claims it's "better than porn"(Which is probably it's now on YouTube x_X), but you could have done time. You're just lucky Jorge talked his girlfriend into not pressing charges-The owners could have had you arrested for disturbing the peace, damaging private propertly and disordely conduct.

>_<

*ends rant*

Oh well...none of that matters, because I love you so much, I got you a surprise before your birthday party:

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It's hard to read from the picture, but the tattoo says "Hers". :D

I have a few others, as well as some piercings-I got my tongue pierced, as well as my nipples. You can't see it in the picture, but that's because it was taken before I got them pierced. >:D

I know nipples seem scary to some, but it actually wasn't that bad. Then again, this is coming from someone who makes their own tattoos by burning them into my skin. It's not like I can get my ears, nose or eyebrows pierced-That would be an extremely obvious excuse to get my ass kicked YET AGAIN.
Some of the people there were insane, though-Some weird girl asked if she could have her "downstairs" pierced.

x_X

Yeah...I don't care who you are, that's just FUCKED UP-I mean, shit...why not just move to Africa and be a victim of Female Genital Mutilation? It's pretty much the same thing, only this girl was stupid enough to pay money for it.

(My girlfriend and her father are <bobsessed with politics and activism-Can you tell? :P)

<lj-cut text="Private to Bart">Why exactly are you spending so much time with my girlfriend?

She's a nice girl, but this is just ridiculous? The least you can do is give us some goddamn privacy when we're alone. Leave us the fuck alone and go spend time with your other half. He's having his period and he needs someone to tell him he doesn't look "fat" in "those jeans". ;)...</lj-cut>

<lj-cut text="Private to Risa">Hey, do you think we could be alone for more than five minutes? :P

Seriously...I miss you. I feel like most of this summer has gone by without us really being alone. Even if Casey and Jorge give us privacy, he's here. I trust you...I just don't understand. He's a dangerous guy and it scares me to think about you two alone together....</lj-cut>

<lj-cut text="Private to Casey">Rianna wants to have a group huddle and you and Jorge need to be there. You and Risa are in danger and we have to figure out what to do next. I know I dropped several bombs this summer and you hated Starchild, but Risa has to fix this and she can't do this without you. Changing the world is a nice dream, but she can't do it without you-Literally. She needs you now more than she ever needed you. Besides...you're the only one I can talk to and open about the past with. I really need a friend and you are pretty much the only family I have left. My cousin at Starchild is a goddamn bitch, my mother's family is INSANE and well, you know about my parents and my past with Risa. I just really need a friend, is all...</lj-cut>

<lj-cut text="Private to Rianna">Come find me-I'm going insane and I can't make it stop. I don't know what I'm going to do, things are so different now...</lj-cut>

<lj-cut text="Private Thoughts">I love her. I love her so much it hurts my head. :D

Why does it feel like the shoe on the other foot's about to drop? I want to tell her...I really, really do. Obviously what happened must have really affected her. She still doesn't remember anything from the old days and it makes me sad. We finally found each other, but she doesn't remember anything. The accident, the day we got engaged, or that perfect, amazing day...

Our first kiss...God, I remember it like it was yesterday. The way her hair looked so perfect, even though her ringlets were smooshed from hiding in her mother's arms. It was shimmering in the sunlight and her eyes looked like sapphires. God, why can't we just close our eyes and be kids again?

Sometimes, I wonder how she couldn't have figured it out by now. Obviously mom has gone through a lot of trouble to hide the truth from her, but it's not like there weren't survivors from the accident. Aunt Margaret, Great-Aunt Katherine, Magnus(Of ALL people), Risa's father, mom,Old man Delacroix, my grandmother, Uncle Balthazar, Sofia, Tristan, the twins and a few others.

Obviously Tristan knows-He wouldn't have just attacked her for no reason. Even though the others don't like her, no one cares enough to try and claim her for a reason. He must have recognized her, even with the new shell she has. She still looks about the same, she just changed her eye and hair color and somehow found a way to adjust to sunlight, snow and the environment on the surface. Sofia...I don't even want to get started on that. Sofia won't give Risa the time of day, which amazes me. It's obvious why she ignores me, but she should be kissing Risa's ass, knowing who she is. Then again, she was always a spoiled, snotty, mean-spirited bitch, even then. I mean, we all grew up together, for god's sake! For whatever reason, she hasn't told Pryce and I'm going to make sure it stays that way. Hell, I'll shut Tristan up if need be-That son of a bitch deserves an ass-kicking for trying to rape her in the first place.

She's become so strange and so secretive lately. Granted, I'm strange and secretive too, but this is just weird. She and Bart go off on secret meetings, he hovers around her and says weird things like "You have no idea who she is", "she's out of your league" and "She's turning into her mother". I mean, hat the hell? It's not as if...

......................Oh, shit.

He knows...he FUCKING knows. How oh how can he know?! He's never met anyone from the past, I doubt Pryce talks about his mother and Rocko sure as hell couldn't have said anything. Oh god, she's so, so very screwed-So it Casey. Granted, Magnus will do anything to protect them both, but he alone may not be enough.

DAMNIT! Why didn't she say anything? Ok granted, she probably doesn't know we knew each other then, but the fact that she knows who she is is cause for alarm. I can't believe she'd keep this from me-Yes, it's a big deal, but I was under the impression we were close. I'm a bit hurt she'd chose to confide in him over me. He's a rapist and a murderer who killed her friend and LOVED it. Plus, he hurt Magnus, which was just plain stupidity on his part. Oh well...if he's protective, I suppose it means her secret is safe.

Speaking of secrets, I can't believe I told Casey. I like her, I really do...but she's not my Risa. No one has ever been her, no one is her and there will never be another Risa. I mean, Casey's hot and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't attracted to her. However, she's not Risa and she never will be-In the end, that's what it adds up to. I care about her and I'm terrified I'll lose her the way I lost my poor cousin Joelle and my father. I feel horrible about hurting her, but I can't change my feelings, I really can't. C

Casey...is more like her mother than she knows, she really is. I hate how everyone calls her "Fader-Bitch". How the hell can't they tell she's not human, period? She's even weirder than me and Risa. She's half Delacroix/Grenier, half...alien. An honest to god FUCKING alien from the Pleiades star cluster, for christ's sake! I know Magnus won't let his only child get hurt, but I'm worried sick about her. It's not like I can claim Vicky, mom, my grandparents or any of the damn Delacroixs. I can see Bart being too stupid to figure out the truth(Though if he knows Risa's secret, then he might know about Magnus, too. Still...he'd refuse to believe anything that goes against his programming.), but PRYCE?! He grew up as a damn Grenier, for god's sake! He was with aunt Margaret until he was 9 and he seriously cannot tell how similar in appearance Joelle and Margaret are?! They always looked rather alike, even as children. I remember mom showing old pictures of them growing up. I don't care if he was 9, Margaret could not have changed that much, damnit. Also...they could not have possibly gotten rid of every non-hybrid in the damn Collective. Hell, Saffron is in the collective and she grew up with everyone.

Poor Casey got the short end of the stick this entire time, when she's actually important as hell. She's a Delacroix AND her father is guardian to the royal family. I'm so, so fucking angry with Magnus-How dare he wait this long to tell her?! She could have been raped, murdered or worse-By her own cousins, to boot! God...in some sick way, that makes Rocko something like an uncle. Well, wait-He never married Margaret, so I guess it's not so bad. She and I both had to grow up with such horrible, abusive guardians-FOR WHAT?! I'm a boy, I handled it, but she's a girl-She deserved to know how close she and Risa actually were. That Risa is her cousin too, even though it's through adoption. Instead, she resents her adopted cousin most of her life, she almost gets raped and murdered by her first cousins and she falls for her 3rd cousin. Not to mention in order to survive, she had to have sex with...my father.

*shudders*

Thank god mom took care of her-At least she and Risa had each other for company. I don't even want to think how awful it must have been for them, growing up as humans, instead of Delacroixs and royalty. To have Lilith resent Risa and spoil CASEY more than her and for Casey to be stuck with that asshole most of her life.

Still, I'm glad I found someone from my past I can cling to. Granted, Joelle left when Magnus disappeared, but still-Her daughter is part of the family and even mom knows that. Why else would she pay for her schooling, help Joelle with her medical bills or anything like that?

God, Joelle-I'm not even going to get into that. Not only is yet another loved one gone and never coming back...she died in such a slow, painful manner. Not to mention the reason why she got sick in the first place. Those poor kids-No wonder they're all so screwed up in the head. I thought I had it bad, but Risa, Casey, Jorge, Lupe, Vicky and even that asshat Anil lived through such a nightmare. I don't want to even think about my sweet, perfect new brother suffering in any way, shape or form. Looking at him and Risa reminds me of how she and I were growing up. It's a sticky subject, but Vicky reminds me of myself that age and the way Risa takes care of him reminds me of how I took care of her.

I'm worried about them both-They're in grave, grave danger the minute the truth comes out. I'm extremely worried about Risa-Rianna told me there's an extremely "dark cloud" hanging over her and that there was something "off" about her, but she couldn't quite piece it. Damnit! I wish I had psychic abilities...I'd do anything to fix this for her and make it better.

Should I even bother, though? The fact that she doesn't remember is what's keeping her from being like this. Then again, she does know who she is....she just doesn't remember me. If she did, she would have said something about it by now and we'd either be happy or she'd kick my ass. She's been bullied and mistreated just like I have, but underneath, she's still my princess. My brave, beautiful Kiraga...she should have been my wife today, the way her mother and my father wanted. So brave, so fearless, so fierce-She's turning into her mother more and more every day. Maybe that's why Bart is so obviously interested in her-There wasn't a man alive that would resist Queen Kyla's charms. Besides, even though Pryce is supposed to be "Junior", Bart still has a bit of our father in him. God knows Father always loved Kyla-The minute she came in the room, mom stopped existing. I felt bad for her, but Kyla made him so happy...how could I hate someone who made my father the best person he could be?

I'm still not entirely positive Risa turning into Kyla is such a good thing-It's obvious she and mom don't get along. I hate how mom abuses her, but damnit...she's my MOTHER. I love her, even if she left me behind and got upset when I came during Christmas and the beginning of summer. She wants to start over and I believe her when she says she loves me. She swears she thought my father would take care of me, but we all know how that wound up. Oh well...it's not like he would have let me go-God knows how possesive he is of his children. Even if I disappoint him, I know some part of him gives a shit-He wouldn't have let me live, nor would he have let me go both times. Lilith didn't even know I was coming and Risa only threw a fit about summer, not Christmas. I wanted to tell her she didn't need to throw a fit-Dad let me go as long as I promised not to be a smart-ass and skip classes.

Dad...god, I'm not even gonna touch that subject with a 20 foot pole. The only ones who know the truth are me, my mother, Risa's father and Rocko. As long as I keep my mouth shut, I know Rocko won't kill me-That's the problem. The truth has a nasty way of coming out when you least expect it, in the worst possible way. It's bad enough that Risa mentioned her eyes(GOD-I can't believe she was blind and albino when she got to the surface-Eeek, that sucks so bad.) and that her father is the prince of the nagas. The fact that the Delacroixs are coming to her house is simply enforcing what Rianna said-These are troubling times.

I'm torn between grabbing the woman I love and making a run for it or just sucking it up and facing them all once and for all. After all, it wasn't an accident that all the other elementals arrived at once, all in the same year. Sometimes, I just want to scream the truth out at those crappy excuses for children he calls his sons. I may have always been rather skinny, but once upon a time ago...he looked at me the way he looks at them-Especially Pryce. He's keeping her alive because he's hoping I'll change, I just know it.

I want to ask her to marry me, but after that talk with Casey and the numerous arguments with mom...I don't know. We haven't been caught, but it's not easy hiding how we feel-Between the songs I sing her, the fact that we can't keep our hands off each other, mom isn't stupid. She sees the way I look at her...the way I've always looked at her. I can't believe she had the nerve to tell me it's "sick" and "incestous" She didn't care back then, but NOW she cares? I never asked her to marry my bethrothed father, nor did I ask her to adopt Risa. She did it for one reason and one fucking reason:To get revenge on Kyla. She always said Kyla didn't deserve to have children, that she treated Risa's poor father like crap,etc... I can tell she loves him, too-He treats her better than dad ever did and he does love Vicky, even if Risa is obviously his favorite.

Yes, there's a age difference, but who cares? Kiraga never gave a shit-Hell, she kissed me, not vice-versa. Seeing Risa...it was like our connection never went away-Fate made us find each other again. It's no accident that we came back the year she would have been my wife-We're meant to marry, I can feel it. Yes, I went from changing her damn DIAPERS to being a big brother to kissing her on the swingsets, but I LOVE her, damnit!

She's not my sister...but it feels like she is sometimes. I'm caught between wanting to smack her when she does those idiotic stunts Jorge dares her to, yelling when she mouths off to Lilith and kick her ass for hanging out with Bart and longing for her when we're together. If she had her memory, we'd be fucking by now, but she doesn't, so we aren't. It's getting harder and harder to keep from touching her. Thanks to Tristan and his bullshit attempt to rape her, she's afraid to let me get to second base. Greaaattt...I got the girl, but she's too damaged to let me touch her. Why the hell did Bart convince her to be straight-edge? The weed always made her relax-She wouldn't be so damn uptight. I feel horrible that she got molested and assaulted, but I'm not Tristan-How can she confuse my touch with a rapist's?

Speaking of Tristan, I am REALLY going to kill him-Sure, Rianna kicked his ass, but he's alive and that's a problem. He tried to rape the girl I love and he needs to die. Anil is such a jackass-He left Casey and Risa alone for four years, he bitches and complained about being engaged to a child to Tristan, Pryce and anyone who'd listen whenever his mate wasn't around, but now that he's home and she's filled out, he's possessive? WTF?!!

I have to say, though...I'm pretty fucking angry Risa didn't tell me she's spoken for. I still love her, but she's too secretive. She goes out to these late night meetings with a murderer and a rapist who OBVIOUSLY wants to fuck her, yet won't tell me what they talk about. She never even bothered asking me if it's okay with me. She simply asked me to trust her and not nag her, despite the fact that she's cursing out her friends for having the common sense to not like a PSYCHO. God, even Lupe knows better, despite the fact that she's always checking him out. Now this shit with Anil? She's in a damn arranged marriage, yet she happily accepted when I asked her out. Why couldn't she just have told me? What did she think I would have said or done? I love her, damnit-Like I'd let that fucknut keep us apart.

I suppose it makes sense, now that I think about it. Lilith keeps getting angry when she catches me staring too hard and she FLIPPED OUT when Risa and I kissed under the mistletoe. How the hell was I supposed to know? If my girlfriend won't tell me she's engaged, at least my MOTHER could have told me. Hell...even her father could have said something or even Casey-I assumed she was against us because she was jealous or overprotective. I still can't believe she thinks of Pryce's Gay husband as a brother. Anil is so fucking human it's not even funny. If he wasn't friends with Tristan, Pryce and Sofia's brother, he never would have fit in. The very fact that he's an alcoholic who's knee deep in supermodels and starlets proves my point. Why the fuck is Pryce his friend, yet he gives Risa shit about being too human? I mean hell...he himself is addicted to tv, porn, fashion, clubbing, partying and all that bullshit.

I should be jealous and I am, but not of Anil. If I'm not jealous of Jorge(Who obviously has some sort of bizarre and unhealthy obsession with her), why be jealous of some asshole she obvious no longer loves? No...I'm jealous of Bart, not Anil or Jorge. Even when she and I first met, I found them together sitting where WE were supposed to have a picnic. She looked so great-She's combed her hair, washed her face, worn a skirt and tank top and even put on that lip gloss I love so much. She says she wants to wait...but I want her so badly, I can taste it. She gets so embarassed when I'm hard-I wish she wouldn't. If she wants to wait, we can, but does she honestly expect me not to want her? She's such a good kisser. I feel like I'm drowning in my own desire every time we're together. The fact that I'm getting under Bart's skin(Now Anil's-Damn, I'm good) only makes me want her more. Hell, I'm even pissing off Pryce and it feels pretty DAMN good being on top for once. Hell, not only did I get the girl...I had two beautiful girls fighting over me. Not to mention Rianna pretended to be upset when I "dumped" her. Heh, I'm hot now! >:D

I know it's childish for me to get off on making him angry, but some small part of me feels really, REALLY good, knowing I have what he wants so badly. I feel like a pervert for saying she tastes like apple pie, but truth me told, she does taste pretty damn good. Between the lip gloss, the way her lips taste as is and the fact that the water makes her kisses so soft, so emotional, but so passionate...god it drives me insane. DAMNIT! Pryce is right-Part of me wants her because it's sweet, wholesome, ripe, luscious, jailbait virgin ass. >_<

Risa's young and she's innocent, but Jesus...I want her so badly-I really, really do. This stupid heat cycle isn't making it better. Sure, I have my damn hands, but it's not the same thing. I'm used to getting laid with more than one girl at a time-How the hell did I go from three-ways on a regular basis to living like a monk? She's isn't just any girl, damnit-If I ask Rianna to have sex with me, or I join her and Casey and Risa finds out, she'll leave me. Not only will she leave me, she'll hate the girls and she'd suddenly be without friends. Then Casey won't forgive me and everyone will be upset. I wish she'd let me touch her, even a little. Or hell, that maybe one of these days, she won't get embarassed and freak out every time I get aroused. She won't touch my penis and it's killing me-It's not going to make her a whore if she gives me a damn hand job. God, I want her so badly...I have ever since we met. She's so cute and she always made me blush. Hell, she blushed when she called me "cute" and "hot". A simple hug makes her stutter. Leaning her head on my shoulder and accidentally placing her hand on mine made her run like hell-I haven't had an effect on a woman since...

God, since Lana-I really, REALLY hope Anil doesn't tell her and Casey why he thinks I'm a nutcase. I was so sure she was Risa. I mean, they looked a bit similar-They could have easily changed her name the way they changed her hair and eye color. I mean, shit-Risa isn't even her real name(Nor is "Ritika"-Why the FUCK does Anal fucking Pressure keep calling her that?), so how was I supposed to know? She reminded me of Kiraga so much, it wasn't even funny. She didn't have hang-ups the way Risa does-She was flirtatious, she was charming...she was almost a damn clone of Kyla Starfox. All the girls I've ever fooled around with reminded me of my princess. In the end, they turned on me...they always do. All the women I love always leave me and it's not fair...

No...this is different. I love her and she loves me...I think. She hasn't said it back yet, but I think it's just because it's only been two months, I'm her first boyfriend(I think-What if she fooled around with Anil? No...she wouldn't be so uptight. Well...if she feels like she's cheating on-NO! She's innocent, I know she is. If she had experience, she wouldn't be so uptight.), she's four years younger and she's a virgin. She looked so upset when she found out I was 20-She actually called me a "grownup".

x_X

Does it even matter that she hasn't said it yet? We've gone to Kate Spade together, we picked out China, we even went to Tiffany's and looked at rings once, just for fun. She's even pointed out wedding dresses to me a few times and we pondered how our children would look and gave them names. I know she's never done this before, but she loves me...she hasto.

DAMNIT!!!

*bangs head against wall*

I'm not a dirty old man, damnit! Ok yes, I'm not perfect-Some part of me wanted them both. Hell, I've even thought about a threesome-God knows I've done that a million times already. >:D I love Risa, though-It wouldn't have been worth losing her just to get laid. Besides, I care about Casey-She deserves better than being a fucktoy...even though part of me wanted to take her up on her offer. Why is everyone against us...it isn't fair. We've both been alone and miserable for so long. I'm not some sort of pervert, I can't be. Pryce is wrong, Casey is wrong, mom is wrong and hell...even Bart is wrong.

I'm also not scraping the damn barrel with my friends. Jorge is AWESOME-I know part of him wants her, but it doesn't bother me because for the first time, I have a guy to talk to. God knows he feels the same way-I know he's 4 years younger, but I can tell him things and it feels good. He, Casey and even his sister are great company, they really are. Even Rianna likes them, which makes it even better-I'd feel guilty if Rianna was jealous or hurt because I'm with the first female friend she's ever had. Asher is a pretty good guy, too-I have no clue what's with him and Lupe(She KEEPS staring at Bart-I don't know whether I'm amused or grossed out). He's hilarious, he's nice, he's uncomplicated and even BART likes him.

I'm not even gonna start on him-Son of a bitch. He spent most of the year being an ass to her(He RAPED and MURDERED her friend, for fuck's sake! Plus, he bragged about killing my wife-WTF?!), then suddenly he's obsessed with her. I mean, I know now it's because he knows her secret, but still...it creeps me out. Why of why can't she see through his bullshit? She swears they're just friends, but I'm not stupid. I see the way she looks at him, the fact that she was jealous when he talked about Lupe being pretty and no matter how much I ask, she won't tell me what they talk about. She screams at everyone for calling him "Robo-Cop", even though she herself used to call him that. She won't let me say a word against him, she's always whispering in his ear, she practically tackled him when we went to go pick him, Pryce and Rianna from the airport and he's ALWAYS around, even when we want to be alone. Is it REALLY necessary for him to stand guard when we're making out? For him to "interrupt" when we're about to kiss? Or hell, for him to try and kill me every time I cop a feel? WTF?!!!

He can't have her, damnit-Those two fuckers turned every girl I ever wanted against me, made me lose my friends and took my father away from me. He can't have her...he just can't......</lj-cut>